1.19.10 -- Psalm 38

Psalm 38


Ps 38:5 ~ This is gonna be a kind of long one.  I was late to church on Sunday because I had another obligation that I just couldn't get out of.  We're going through Habakkuk and this was the message on chapter 3.  I came in after the sermon was probably about halfway through.  I was fortunate enough though, to be there in time to hear the testimony of one of the women in the church.  She talked about some really rough things she had been through and about the painful process as God brought about healing in her life.  She said that she realized that the reason it was hurting so much was that she had wounded her heart so many times and each time not treated the wound but simply stuck a bandaid over it.  By the time she sought out God's healing her heart was covered in festering wounds and a thick wall of bandaids.  The pain was God ripping off the bandaids one by one so that He could treat the wounds.  This is so often my experience as well!  I don't have a wall of bandaids, it tends to be just one or two at a time, but I make this mistake over and over.  I try to heal my own wounds rather than seeking out the Great Physician.  The wounds just get worse, "foul and festering," because I refused to seek His help and instead relied on my own foolishness!

Ps 38:9 ~ I'm just picturing this one.  God sees our hurts long before we bring them before Him.  Nothing is hidden from His sight.  How sad it must be for Him to watch us struggle and to wait for us to turn to Him for help.  How much it must pain Him to watch the foolish and often hateful things we do to try to handle things on our own while He's there waiting to take care of us.  How much easier it would be if I just learned to turn to Him first!